It’s hard to say, not because of his muddled thoughts, but because he should be able to fix anything. He always could, if it was mechanical. To not be able to do it now, when perhaps he most needs the ability, is frustrating and demoralizing and, quite frankly, depressing. That it has nothing to do with him, that it’s no deficiency on his part that makes the reactor impossible to repair, is irrelevant.
“It’s not about skill. I designed it. Of course I can fix it. But I can’t do it now.” He looks between them, as if by doing so, maybe they’ll understand without him having to spell it out. Tony even goes so far as to reach out to Steve, but between his own unsteadiness and the fact that Steve’s moving away, he never comes close to touching him.
“Steve…” He wants to tell him that he’s sorry. Sorry for not being able to fix it. Sorry for letting it get tampered with in the first place. Sorry for not telling him sooner. Sorry for not having the decency to go away so that he wasn’t putting everyone else in danger with his presence. He could, and should, say any one of this things, but what he says instead, is a quiet, “Don’t leave.”
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It’s hard to say, not because of his muddled thoughts, but because he should be able to fix anything. He always could, if it was mechanical. To not be able to do it now, when perhaps he most needs the ability, is frustrating and demoralizing and, quite frankly, depressing. That it has nothing to do with him, that it’s no deficiency on his part that makes the reactor impossible to repair, is irrelevant.
“It’s not about skill. I designed it. Of course I can fix it. But I can’t do it now.” He looks between them, as if by doing so, maybe they’ll understand without him having to spell it out. Tony even goes so far as to reach out to Steve, but between his own unsteadiness and the fact that Steve’s moving away, he never comes close to touching him.
“Steve…” He wants to tell him that he’s sorry. Sorry for not being able to fix it. Sorry for letting it get tampered with in the first place. Sorry for not telling him sooner. Sorry for not having the decency to go away so that he wasn’t putting everyone else in danger with his presence. He could, and should, say any one of this things, but what he says instead, is a quiet, “Don’t leave.”