Why? Why has Erik deemed him the only one worthy of his time? Why would Erik break his back just to keep Charles from doing the same. It doesn't make any sense to him. Because yes, they are friends, quick to an easy affection that Charles has longed for since he was young and romantic and reckless, but he assumes that is more on his part than the man towering over him. Because Erik has a cause and Charles' cause is ... Erik.
He's been ignoring Raven's sidelong curious glances for as many weeks as he's lived since he jumped in after Erik. Because he doesn't have the words to explain what it's like, what the first pure breath of air after suffocating had become. He's a man of a dozen meaningful statements and Erik had chiseled it all away.
"I don't ... " a helpless, unhappy breath, "Erik, just teach me. Neither of us has to -."
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Why? Why has Erik deemed him the only one worthy of his time? Why would Erik break his back just to keep Charles from doing the same. It doesn't make any sense to him. Because yes, they are friends, quick to an easy affection that Charles has longed for since he was young and romantic and reckless, but he assumes that is more on his part than the man towering over him. Because Erik has a cause and Charles' cause is ... Erik.
He's been ignoring Raven's sidelong curious glances for as many weeks as he's lived since he jumped in after Erik. Because he doesn't have the words to explain what it's like, what the first pure breath of air after suffocating had become. He's a man of a dozen meaningful statements and Erik had chiseled it all away.
"I don't ... " a helpless, unhappy breath, "Erik, just teach me. Neither of us has to -."
Suffer.