"I don't want medication." Sure, he's a mess, but he's gotten this far in life without resorting to pills. A case can be made that pills are better than alcohol, but there's a crazy stigma attached to pills that Tony just isn't prepared to take on. Especially when people already think he's nuts.

"It's fine. I know you're not. I knew it when I paid you a visit there. I just..." Shrugging, he trails off. He'd just wanted to talk to someone he trusted, who wouldn't ignore him or brush him off or tell him just to get over it, and there aren't many people like that in his life.

"I'm not as bad as I was. It's getting a little better, and maybe now it'll get better a little faster." Because he's here. Because he's away from the things that trigger an episode. Because he has something better than pills. "One day at a time, right? That and carry a paper bag for when I start hyperventilating."