blackmagus: (♒ Jazz)
ℬ. ℱᴏʀᴛᴇsᴄᴜᴇ ([personal profile] blackmagus) wrote in [community profile] kore_logs2013-06-05 03:09 pm

If you don't stop, you'll lose control

Who: Fortescue, and you (open)
Where: The bar.
When: Day 78, late morning/early afternoon.
What: Fortescue stops holing herself up in her room and decides to go to the bar to self-medicate her discomforts.



She was cut off from the Planes, and that was the problem. Normally the connection was healed in what felt like a matter of minutes. But when the barrier had split open, it had ruptured the connection to her soul, safely contained within Jazz, and now it was healing, but slowly. At first she had felt normal, as far as being severed from your soul was concerned, but here in the Cape she was cut off from the medication that stopped the later panic attacks and hallucinations. One of her superiors had once, with immense gravity, described it as the little bit of your soul that's left, having a nervous breakdown. She had crawled under her metaphorical rock and had barely come out, Jazz howling up a pained storm. Normally he was knocked out and kept that way, when he had to handle this much time alone with a human soul.

Fortescue didn't like to think of what it could be doing to him. It wouldn't kill him, she knew, or they never would have let her pick him as the carrier of an exanimed soul. But she knew it was painful, both from his cries and from the fact that — as the connection started to heal — she could now feel it. Prolonged pain did funny things to both people and animals. And this was like sitting in a sauna, with a switchblade being, occasionally, stuck straight through the heart.

Whether her Guide or the Planes itself normally healed the connection, she didn't know. But it would be at least another day, at this rate, before she and Jazz would both feel closer to normal.

To that end, Fortescue decided to go drink until she couldn't feel it as much. It was her standard solution to such problems, her tolerance being decidedly average. Imperium had always kept its secret weapon well-stocked, though maybe they had been starting to regret that move. And she needed to get out of the house before she started crawling the walls. Even when curled up in bed, she didn't like it, though possibly that was because of being curled up alone. That was being safe, however, because she knew exactly why her superiors cut her off from Jazz on certain missions. She was more... 'effective', that way. More likely to question instincts that others would consider moral or human. No matter how much she liked to pretend otherwise, she'd been trained to kill and that was what she did for a living. So for a few days, she kept herself away from others and only let herself talk to them over the comms. Or in short bursts.

Now that the tether to her soul seemed more stable, however, she was eager to get out. But sitting up and on a stool, or in a chair, seemed to magnify her discomfort. So late morning and early afternoon found Bethmora Fortescue sitting against one of the bar's walls, near the counter, with a twitching cat in her lap and a bottle of something nameless in her hand, humming something that was closer to a funeral dirge than anything else. It was 3AM somewhere. Probably. Despite the tone of what she was humming, she had a pleasant expression — aside from the occasional twinges of discomfort.

[ooc: For those who can sense such things, her soul residing in her kitty is about 500% more obvious right now. As the connection is still sealing itself.]
bluesrat: (thinky)

[personal profile] bluesrat 2013-06-12 01:10 am (UTC)(link)
"There's a lot of..." He's afraid to say strange, because then it would sound as if he's including her in that, which really is the case anyway, but he's afraid she might be offended so he hesitates in search of a better word. "...unusually gifted people here. Maybe you should ask around. You wouldn't have to explain why." He rubs Jazz under the chin, feeling slightly useless. "Somebody here might know some way to fix it."
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[personal profile] bluesrat 2013-06-14 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
Frowning a little, Rat nods. "Okay, fair enough. That's a damned vulnerable position to put yourself in." He may not understand soul damage, exaniming, or her connection to Jazz, but he does understand not wanting to be vulnerable.

With a sigh, he lets up on petting the cat to pat her shoulder. "Sorry, I guess it's just that you're telling me, and I'm afraid I can't do anything about it."
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[personal profile] bluesrat 2013-06-17 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
She may be making a joke, but his face is not misleading. He's a trustworthy kind of guy, sometimes at his own expense.

He just gives her a smile, though, and lets her rub shoulders with his. "Honestly, I just came here because I was hoping there'd be somebody else here. I can't sing right now, anyway." His voice is still a little rough from the smoke, and he's not in a hurry to push his lungs. At least avoiding cigarettes is easy enough here, since the supply is limited.
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[personal profile] bluesrat 2013-06-19 11:31 am (UTC)(link)
He gives a few rattling coughs, and scratches Jazz under the chin. "It's good company, yeah. Maybe I should grab a drink..." He eyes the bar, but getting up seems like too much trouble. He's comfortable right here, really. This is a perfectly fine alternative to playing music.

"I'm just sorry I can't do more for you."
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[personal profile] bluesrat 2013-06-21 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
He considers her bottle, for a good, long moment, then shakes his head with a tired little smile. "Better not. I've gone the rotgut route before, thanks. I'll get a beer, later." Because it's really not worth getting up for. His need is nowhere close to hers.

"Just be careful, okay? I've been there."
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[personal profile] bluesrat 2013-06-25 10:24 am (UTC)(link)
He rolls his eyes a little, and pulls a wearily amused face. "You strike me as many things, but not the cautious type. Just let me know if you want food or water to go with that."
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[personal profile] bluesrat 2013-07-02 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
"Somebody's gotta look out for you, right?" He smiles back gently, with concern that's fatherly rather than in any way flirtatious.
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[personal profile] bluesrat 2013-07-03 11:25 am (UTC)(link)
"Everyone needs somebody to take care of them, at least once in a while. And you're... hurt." If Rat were to be wholly honest, he tends to exclude himself from that statement, but for the moment he doesn't want to leave her by herself. Drunk and injured is no way to leave a friend alone.
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[personal profile] bluesrat 2013-07-06 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
He smiles back gently. "If music would help, I can give you a private gig, but I like listening, too."