"I know it's to be expected. It's been a long time, but..."

But there were just some things she didn't think she'd ever see him do. Be pals with a demon was one of them. Be pals with a demon he'd had such a bloodstained history with was right near the top of the list, just under selling the Impala or breaking her down for scrap metal. It just wasn't supposed to be this way.

She sighs heavily, pursing her lips as she centers herself and tries to find a way to articulate what makes this so difficult. That feeling of betrayal is still there, and she imagines it's not going anywhere anytime soon, but there's something more. A disconnect between them, a sadness that dragged her heart down into her stomach whenever she saw just how animated he was with people who had come long after her time.

"I don't really know how to deal with it," she says finally, confessing. "Being so far behind. It's like I got left behind and I'm never gonna catch up, even if we're all in the same place. It's strange, being faced with the evidence that you're just... not part of someone's future. I mean, normally, I'd just be dead, wouldn't I? And I wouldn't care then. It wouldn't feel so wrong. I'd be where I'm supposed to be, I guess. But this place complicates things."