living just to keep going, going just to be sane, all the while not knowing, it's such a shame

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Who: Anna Milton and Sharon Carter, Fun Ghoul (and potential other House 5 occupants), Kenzi, Galen, Jesse, Meg and River Tam [semi-open, see notes]
What: Angel Proofing, Supernatural Training and General Shenanigans
Where: House 3, House 5, House 11, House 16, House 20.
When: Days 46-49
Notes: This is a bit of a catch-all log for a lot of things I want to do, so I don't spam with loads of closed entries. If you want to nab yourself some sweet sweet Anna CR, shoot me a PM and you can have a thread too!

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"If I was after Castiel I would have made sure he was home." It might sound a little short, but it's said with as much of a good nature as Anna can muster up these days. She's definitely preoccupied, but after a moment where she glances back at the space behind her, she offers Meg a brief smile. "It's actually you I'm after. Can I come in?"

See, whoever thought angels couldn't be polite clearly hadn't met Anna. In all fairness, some of the more subtle human nuances like, say, personal space are a lot easier to pick up on when you've actually lived as a human for twenty five years, but even so. She's a little more considerate of these things than most. "I have a few things I wanted to discuss with you, you see."

[foundacause]

And already they are off to a catty start. Meg shrugs and steps back from the door so Anna can enter. Sure, letting an angel in is probably suicidal, but she has her blade and she has been practising the banishing sigil Cas taught her, so she isn't completely unarmed. "Suit yourself."

She turns to head to the living room, pausing to straighten up one of the hotels on the Monopoly board. "So, what did the Feather Brigade want to talk to a lowly little demon whore about?"

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"Not the words I'd use..."

She sighs as she folds her arms over her chest, looking idly around the room for a moment or two before bringing her focus back to Meg. She is seriously trying here, all personal feelings aside. That said, even they aren't as bad as her initial reaction. Now it's more the generalised mistrust she has for the people of her world in general. It's barely even about the demon thing any more.

"I'm here about Crowley. Word is, you know him better than most. I want to know how much of a threat he is, whether we need to start planning for him to make a move. And I need to know that you're going to help me keep Cas safe."

Which, in the end, is the real reason she's talking to Meg about him and not someone else. There's enough angels here to take down one demon, 'King of Hell' or not, but that would require a unified force, and angels aren't so good at moving past their issues. On their own, Anna has no idea how powerful this guy is. She needs to know that he'll be safe.

[foundacause]

"Crowley? Crowley is a smarmy bastard and a weasel." Meg had had a realisation when she was talking to Lucifer though. "Back home? I'd say he was the number one problem. King of Hell with an inflated sense of self importance. Or maybe he's just compensating, you step into Lucifer's shoes, it's kind of a big deal."

She shrugs and drops down on the sofa. "Course, back home he has an entire underworld of lackeys at his beck and call and a kennel full of hellhounds. Here? I dunno. Kind of hoping he's cut off from all that. Just Crowley without his toys? Not such a big deal."

Man, why does everyone want to know whether she'll keep Cas safe and what her intentions are to him? Answering those kind of questions means analysing her own feelings and she doesn't want to. "Cas can take care of his self. But, if you must know, I got his back, 'kay?"

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Her relief is obvious when Meg explains the situation, and she nods along quickly. Well that's one less thing she has to worry about, that's for sure. Not that she's going to just forget about the fact that he could be a threat of course, but it's a lot more comforting to know that without all of his back up Crowley might be less of a concern. One small thing to check off the list.

Now for...well. Everything else, starting with this business with Meg and Castiel. He can make his own decisions, Anna is all too well aware of that, but first and foremost he will always be her brother. Complications aside, she cares about him, and cares enough to make sure that the people around him have his best interests in mind.

"I'm perfectly aware he can take care of himself." The slight cool tone in that response is entirely personal this time, nothing to do with Meg and everything to do with those complications, but she continues on a little softer. "We...have a rocky relationship. I look out for him when I can, but it's difficult. If there's someone who is around him more and is looking out for him..."

She gives a small shrug. Feelings talks are hard, okay?

"I appreciate it. He needs someone looking out for him, even if he doesn't always realise it. Thank you, and- I'm sorry. I shouldn't have judged you so quickly."

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[foundacause]

Feelings talks are the hardest! They make Meg want to crawl into the nearest hole and die in there like a wounded animal. She's a demon, and all these feelings should've been stripped away when she lost her humanity. It's not even as though they are ghost feeling either, memories of how feelings felt. They're real. And she hates herself for it.

"Kinda used to be judged on sight. Comes with the territory of being a black eyed bitch - it has a certain stigma attached to it. People don't seem to take too kindly to the torturing and the murdering." Still, she appreciates the lack of smiting. Not being a burnt out shell on the floor is always good in Meg's mind.

"And like I said - I have his back." Translated into Meg feels talk it roughly meant - 'I'd die for him'.

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"Still, I've had experiences with demons before. Ones who helped. I shouldn't have assumed so quickly."

Not that it'll make any difference the next time a demon appears. She'll cast the same judgement - and probably with valid reasoning - but Meg at least, Meg is on the all clear list. Castiel trusts her, and Anna trusts in his judgement these days, if nothing else. He's wised up a lot in the time since she's known him, it seems. For the better.

"Good. I imagine he has yours too," there's the hints of a smile there when she says that - she doesn't know anything, not at all in fact, but considering her own uber denial situation, maybe she might slightly be recognising the signs. Or perhaps she's just being friendly, who knows. "Take care of him."

[foundacause]

"Helpful demons? We're a rare breed. Like unicorns - only less sparkly." Every demon Meg knows would as soon as stab you in the back than help you unless there was something in it for them - herself included in most cases.

Things with Cas are ...different. She can't explain it. Well, she probably can, but she chooses not to.

Meg shoots Anna a halfway smile in return. "I intend to take great care of him. Not every day you find an angel willing to give you a chance. Especially a cute one."