but you've lived and breathed more than any man I know

[afallenstar]

Who: Anna and Castiel
When: Day 52
Where: El casa de Castiel
What: Awkward sibling chats are awkward.


It's not hard to locate Castiel and she should really take the shortcut, but Anna walks anyway. She's possibly procrastinating a little, not that she'd ever admit that, so the longer it takes the better.

It's not a big town though, and before long she's at the house. Putting it off is getting her nowhere, its foolish and immature, so she doesn't knock. Instead she glances around to make sure no one is in sight, then just bites the bullet and appears in front of him. No warning, those courtesies are left for conversations she doesn't mind having, and there's an awkward moment where she doesn't know where to begin, so she stays silent for a moment. This is pretty much new to her, after all. Being human hadn't prepared her for this. It takes a minute or two, but finally she folds her arms and manages to muster up a decent enough start. She just needs to...not jump in straight away. Start with a nice conversation beginner, and move forward from there.

"You should apologise to Ghoul."

Smooth.

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[happytobleed]

"I'm glad you're here, too." He knows there's a lot of good and bad between them. They can't just forget any of it and they shouldn't, but if this place can give them a way to start fresh and rebuild some of what they've lost, he'll be thankful, because he loves her, perhaps just a little more than some of his other siblings.

There are things about humanity that the others don't understand and they likely never will. He doesn't share her want for a human life, but he does love humanity and he loves Sam and Dean. She can understand that. Maybe she can even understand why he cares about Meg.

"I can't be the soldier I was, but if you need a brother, I'll be here for you." He's learned a lot about what being a brother can be from Sam and Dean. He hasn't been a very good brother to the siblings who should perhaps matter most, but he can try to be better to them now.

[afallenstar]

Her head drops down slightly to look at the ground as he responds, and though the angle might hide her small grin, the quiet chuckle is definitely audible. Of course it would take being ripped from their world, left high and dry without Heaven and Garrisons and the absent presence of their Father to ever let anything quite so honest pass between them.

It shouldn't seem worth it, but - especially given what she knows waits for her if they ever do return home - she can't help but feel like maybe, just maybe, it's a little bit worth it. Looking back up at him, she's still smiling fondly.

"I don't want the soldier. I don't need him, I haven't in a long time," And maybe he still doesn't understand the importance of physical affection quite as much as she does, but that minor detail matters very little right now to her as she takes a few steps closer. "The brother? Yes, I need him."

Without much break after the words leave her mouth, she steps a little closer and wraps her arms around his shoulders, pulling Castiel into a tight hug. She sighs quietly, even takes a moment to lean in a little, then lets out another, slightly more weary sounding laugh. It definitely feels worth putting up with the captivity right now.

[happytobleed]

Castiel has participated in a handful of hugs, each of them awkward, but not without enjoyment. He doesn't understand physicality as well as she does, but he has come to learn what it can do, if not the nuances of the hows and whys.

The hug surprises him, but he doesn't mind it at all. After a moment, he wraps his arms around her. It's as awkward as he always is, but he still tries to make sure that she knows that he means it. Their family is so fractured, but that doesn't mean that he doesn't treasure them and her in particular.

"I can do that."