"Thank you." Raphael was aware that Gabriel probably didn't know that Raphael had truly cared for Castiel, things hadn't always been this difficult. He had truly wanted Castiel to return to Heaven and work with him. He'd been, and still was, unwilling to abandon Michael to the Cage, unwilling - unable - to continue on as they were, he did believe the Apocalypse had to occur, but he had wanted Castiel there with him. He didn't understand how after all his brother had seen, he didn't understand why Raphael was so tired of the suffering.
Gabriel's flopped over him and it's probably awkward, but he didn't mind. It was reminiscent of them hanging on each other when they were younger and it was...almost refreshing. Some of it was his fault, he kept his siblings, save Michael, at a distance and Michael wasn't the most affectionate ever. Even still Raphael slides his hands around, a hand on Gabriel's back, one on his side, supporting him as he leaned against him.
But his comment about Michael makes Raphael falter, and not because it is a criticism of Michael - though he takes at one - but because he knows it's true. Still he breaks eye contact to look away, even if he tilts his head towards Gabriel, almost enough to touch. "It wasn't about me then, Michael had too much do to, too much depending on him, and no one caring of him. I couldn't add to his burdens." Which didn't absolve Michael of overlooking Raphael, he should have paid more attention to him - they should have paid more attention to each other, in some ways, but Raphael knew Michael was no more less tired, less weary of everything, than Raphael was. Looking down the barrel of time, knowing he was going to have to kill Lucifer, and Raphael watching what that had done to Michael...
Though he lets Gabriel tug him, tucks against up against his side. The kiss is surprising, almost shocking really - when was the last time someone kissed him? He wasn't sure he remembered - and it gets a sharp inhale. It is awkward, and actually reminds Raphael of Michael's attempts to provide comfort, though he thinks if he said that Gabriel would like smack him.
"I'm not sure I remember how to relax." It wasn't really true - he was here, after all. But Gabriel wasn't wrong in that Raphael was more comfortable with him. And he doesn't answer the rest, because he doesn't know how to. He didn't think he needed taking care of, and didn't feel comfortable being taken care of, even if he did miss being able to lean on his older brothers. Though he was finding it pleasant to lay against Gabriel, and he wasn't in much of a rush to move.
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Gabriel's flopped over him and it's probably awkward, but he didn't mind. It was reminiscent of them hanging on each other when they were younger and it was...almost refreshing. Some of it was his fault, he kept his siblings, save Michael, at a distance and Michael wasn't the most affectionate ever. Even still Raphael slides his hands around, a hand on Gabriel's back, one on his side, supporting him as he leaned against him.
But his comment about Michael makes Raphael falter, and not because it is a criticism of Michael - though he takes at one - but because he knows it's true. Still he breaks eye contact to look away, even if he tilts his head towards Gabriel, almost enough to touch. "It wasn't about me then, Michael had too much do to, too much depending on him, and no one caring of him. I couldn't add to his burdens." Which didn't absolve Michael of overlooking Raphael, he should have paid more attention to him - they should have paid more attention to each other, in some ways, but Raphael knew Michael was no more less tired, less weary of everything, than Raphael was. Looking down the barrel of time, knowing he was going to have to kill Lucifer, and Raphael watching what that had done to Michael...
Though he lets Gabriel tug him, tucks against up against his side. The kiss is surprising, almost shocking really - when was the last time someone kissed him? He wasn't sure he remembered - and it gets a sharp inhale. It is awkward, and actually reminds Raphael of Michael's attempts to provide comfort, though he thinks if he said that Gabriel would like smack him.
"I'm not sure I remember how to relax." It wasn't really true - he was here, after all. But Gabriel wasn't wrong in that Raphael was more comfortable with him. And he doesn't answer the rest, because he doesn't know how to. He didn't think he needed taking care of, and didn't feel comfortable being taken care of, even if he did miss being able to lean on his older brothers. Though he was finding it pleasant to lay against Gabriel, and he wasn't in much of a rush to move.